more together than I feel

Today I got the grade back on my midterm for my advanced research seminar on the psychology of emotion: 90/100. When I took this midterm two weeks ago, I was quite certain that I had done C work at best and almost went home and immediately dropped the class. I have a hard time dealing with anything less than perfection. However, by the time I had finished inhaling a cheeseburger and making the 45 minute commute home, I realized that, even if one grade wasn't that great, I could still probably pull a B in the class and all was not in fact lost. Which brings us to today when I found out I got an A. It kind of summarizes my entire quarter so far. I've been feeling particularly on edge, still in control but seconds away from dropping all of my spinning plates. Every time I think I have dropped the ball somehow things all work themselves out. When I overbook myself for the week, my classes get canceled due to illness. When I walk into a cooking class exhausted and feeling completely out of my element, my favorite chef assistant tells me I have to try this new knife they just got in and the head chef is so impressed with my cooking she insists I have to sign up for her June class on pies, tarts, and crostatas. When I've been a bit over responsible and paid too much on my bills, a family member gives me money or a friend buys me dinner. When I'm feeling a bit unloved and overwhelmed, someone will step up to tell me just how very loved I am and that everything is going to be okay. I have friends who have made me part of their families and family that are best friends. I have people that I can talk to about anything at any time and even a person that will let me sit on their couch and use their internet and do my homework so that I don't get distracted at home. I am so very blessed and I'm pretty sure if I didn't have these people in my life that hold me together that I would have come apart at the seams long ago.