I'm more than aware that I've been a bit on the impersonal side lately. The truth is I've been struggling a lot over the past month and I haven't really wanted to talk about it to anyone. I've been holing up in my apartment for weeks on end, playing video games, sleeping more than any human has a right to, and ignoring all of the things that actually need to get done before I head back to school next month. It's not a healthy way to deal but I've never really been big on burdening others with my problems. However, one of my favorite bloggers, Single Dad Laughing, reminded me this week that, when we set out as a blogger, we owe our readers everything, even the not so pretty parts of life.
I've been pretty down since my friend passed the week before my birthday. I struggled a bit to make it through the summer quarter and came nowhere near my usual dean's list standards. Money has been tight all summer which means I also haven't been to any archery lessons or gotten involved in anything else over the summer. I've been eating too much, sleeping too much, having nightmares and insomnia, my anxiety has been high, and my depression has been out of control. I'm feeling a bit lost and lonely and, despite all of the good things I've got going, I'm struggling to stay cheerful. I always come out of these funks eventually and I'm not asking for pity and I don't really want to sit and have a conversation with anyone about it. Just, if you've got a spare moment, send some good thoughts this way. Maybe it will help.
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